Wow. We are so busy lately. It seems the last month or so has been event after event, birthday upon birthday (first Jackie, today Dave's dad, next week my Grandma, then Dave's). In the midst of all this I'm a little sad. March 6th was the two year anniversary of my Grandma Lue's death and the 26th of March will be the one year anniversary of my Aunt Ruth Anne's death.
Today was Dave's dad's birthday. We got him a gift card for dinner at Red Lobster/The Olive Garden etc. He can pick.
It was really nice. We got over there about 1. It was kind of sad Dave's brother and his wife weren't there..but there is family drama so what do you expect? We still made do.
It was nice to see Tonya and Ethan and Kaylee. Tonya is definitely showing and looks tired. They did find out her baby is a girl.
I will say..I think it's pretty damn mean for Dave's brother and wife to treat Tonya like shit. She is a high risk pregnancy and all they seem to do is find reasons to insult her and treat her like shit. As it is...S calls her "Chewbacca" behind her back..which is incredibly mean.
No matter what..Tonya is the mother of S's child and she deserves a modicum of respect. At the very least..they should be civil to her. But they are not.
We spent all day over there..and for once..I wasn't all upset over the things that are going on right now. I didn't think of ANY of the BS all day.
Shelby gave Jackie a skateboard her size..and Jackie is over the moon. When we got home tonight she wanted to show me some of her "moves". I must say..this child is more athletic now than I ever was.
I'd like to watch a movie tonight. Yesterday we picked up a few. Some stupid movie called "School for Scoundrel's" and a Tenacious D movie, (Dave's choice) and for me, "The Devil wears Prada" and "The Zodiac". I loved the Devil movie but have yet to watch the Zodiac. I have read tons of information on the Zodiac killer but I am hoping I don't have the same reaction this time as I did with "Summer of Sam". It seems I'm okay reading about this but it's another story to watch a movie about it. It may disturb me..in which case, I'll have to walk away and let Dave watch it. Something about violent killing (victim situations) seems to be a trigger for me and I freak out. I remember when I went to see "See No Evil" with Lisa and I almost had a panic attack. The only way I made it through that was the jokes Lisa made..which took some of the "real" out of it.
I'm thinking about my ma Cindy a lot lately. She is going through her own version of hell..watching her mother deteriorate and fading fast..all the while dealing with the probate of my Aunt Ruth's estate. I just think she has so much on her plate and I KNOW there are days she cries because it seems like things are just so bad. Grandma is in a nursing home right now and she refuses to eat. Mom has to actually feed food to her in order for Grandma to eat. It's just sad, really.
I sometimes don't know what's worse, your parent dying all of the sudden or dying a slow death.
I was thinking today about the comment that I have committed the sin of gluttony and envy. That sort of cracked me up because "Judgemental, much?" and because well...I'm not really a real Christian so I don't buy into the whole sinning thing. The whole thing that chaps my ass about Christianity is their willingness to judge other people and to scare you about sin.
I've had enough guilt to last me a lifetime. And no one is going to guilt me into doing anything. That shit doesn't work on me. Ask my mom. She'll tell you. She's got the guilt thing down, don't you mom? ;) Mom's are especially talented with guilt but as much as I have learned it doesn't really work with Jackie..other people should learn it doesn't work with me either.
I am true to myself..and if that hurts..oh well. I'm not going to be someone I'm not. I don't kiss ass..for the record. People looking to get their ass kissed should look elsewhere.
7:00 pm - March 17, 2007
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