Hi well..it's been a long long time. Since I've been gone I left an abusive relationship, went to Kansas, lived there for 8 months and now I've come back to St. Louis.
There are a lot of things going on right now. My sister was diagnosed last October with stage 4b cancer and it has metasticized. It went from her cervix, to her bone and now she has tumors in her abdomen. The outlook is very bleak and it's hard to watch her go through this.
I am going to go see her for two weeks next week.
While in Kansas I spent time with my brother and his family, my dad, my cousins and other friends. It was nice but it isn't like home.
I worked 50 hours a week, at nighttime of all times at a bank. I processed Mortgages for huge banks like Bank Of America, Metlife-Citigroup and Dbank. It was a challenging job and the only thing I didn't love about it was the hours. I worked from 6 p.m. until 4 a.m. Imagine trying to have a life and working those hours.
I was never more miserable than I was in Leavenworth, Kansas. I only had ONE date and it was with a guy who looks great on paper but in person he had a very bland personality.
Most of all, I missed my best friend Lisa. She is like a sister to me and we share EVERYTHING. Right now, we are staying with her.
Until I know what's for sure happening with my sister I am not moving into my own place. It doesn't make sense to pay rent on a place you'll hardly be at.
Lots of new things going on in my life. I am engaged to a wonderful man who treats me like a princess.
If you want to see pictures of him, hop on over to my myspace page at http://myspace.com/indigonavy
Send me a friend request if you like and mention you are from diaryland.
My fiance's name is Bryon and believe it or not we met because his MARRIED brother was hitting on me in a myspace chatroom. After talking to his brother for a bit..I guess Bryon took interest and I quickly lost interest in his brother, especially after finding out he was married. Not separated, MARRIED, still sleeping with his wife. Not good at all. But I can't be mad at Danny anymore because, because of his stupidity, I met his brother.
Bryon comes from Indiana and just moved to St. Louis. We are SO IN LOVE and I have now realized what real, mature grown up love is like and I am so goddamn happy it hurts.
I permanently have a stupid grin on my face these days.
My daughter is 11 1/2 years old. Jackie is growing up fast and I am so incredibly proud of the person she is becoming. She has integrity, honesty and compassion for everyone. She's such a good kid.
Right now she's in Oregon visiting her dad. Yay, a break for me!
I'll be going back to work soon. Probably right after I get back from my sister's house. I just don't know how I'm going to reconcile the strong healthy person she was with a person who has lost all of her hair, can't breathe well, can hardly walk and is weak all the time now. I think if Bryon wasn't going with me I'd have myself committed after coming back home.
3:14 pm - June 26, 2008
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