I know it's been a while..and I'm sorry that I haven't updated. Forgive me because I probably had the worst night of sleep ever last night and I feel like complete crap.
The rundown, and not in order of importance: My job, stressful as hell. It was 105 degrees in the warehouse the other day. There is a lot of expectations and importance attached to my job, so I must stay alert and I eat like 3 Vivarin a day to stay awake and alert. My doctor has referred me to a neurologist.
I have not yet found a job with benefits and it is hard to not get disheartened. At the same time, I am thankful that I have a job that at least pays the basic bills.
My adopted mom's mother, who we called Granny Great, died a month ago. I will miss Granny but I am most concerned for my mom, because I know how it feels to lose your mom. I feel so much closer to her now.
I've had a sinus infection that spread to my throat and lungs and I've been on antibiotics for 4 days and my tonsils are as big as hockey pucks STILL.
Jackie has been having massive migraines. I am going to see if I can take her to a neurologist.
My relationship with Lisa had deepened and I love her now more than ever. I truly feel blessed to have her. People will never understand what we have and I don't expect them to.
My energy level is really low lately and it takes much motivation to do one simple thing. I am not depressed..so I don't know what's the deal.
I've been having breakthrough episodes with my sleep disorder. On some level..I am really freaking out about my life right now.
My sister Renee has been stalked for 4 years by this guy. He is a jailhouse snitch and no matter what evil shit he does to her he never gets in an real trouble besides a few weeks in the clink. He is a dangerous felon who associates with known drug dealers and has bragged about being involved in shady dealings. Every time she moves he finds her. We don't know how this happens.
This time, a few weeks ago, he choked her in front of 5 children, until she passed out. When she came to, she was coughing up blood. He is now in jail but we all, meaning OUR FAMILY, feel a death threat over our family. I have felt it for months over my sister. I cannot eat, sleep, or function knowing that my hands are tied and that there's not much I can do besides what I have already done. I will say that this man is extremely dangerous with nothing to lose and I EXPECT he will make another attempt on my sister's life when he gets out. I am so scared for her that it has overtaken my life and I obsess about her..because the only person I love more than my sister is my daughter. I'd kill for either of them.
I am worried that there is something really wrong with my body.
David's mother has cancer..and she is so depressed. I am worried about her.
David had to declare bankruptcy. When I got laid off, we put all of his bills in debt consolidations with Credit Solutions, who in turn, took our money for months. $1400 to be exact. They never paid any of David's creditors one red cent and did NOT communicate with them. David got a summons a month or so ago. I in turn, filed reports with the Texas Attorney General, the Better Business Bureau of Dallas and with ripoffreport.com. We got back half of what we paid them and now David knows not to underestimate me.
David and I are okay. Nothing moves me to marry him anytime soon. I love him very much and I treasure him..but I have so much going on otherwise I don't have a lot of time to sit on and think on and reflect on our relationship. For now..we are on autopilot.
Jackie is going to Oregon in July to visit her Dad.
I'm okay..just wanted to update my diary. Prayers, good thoughts..light a candle, good vibes..we need ALL of it.
8:52 am - June 09, 2007
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