I sit here eating spaghetti and being bored out of my mind. I am off today..I didn't ask for it..they just gave it to me.
I cleaned all weekend for an inspection and they haven't showed up yet. Jeez.
I've been talking to a friend online and I was talking to her about my sadness over what's happened with Lisa. She said it sounds like the relationship became toxic. It's not because either of us is better than the other. We just sort of outgrew each other. I guess it's bound to happen sooner or later.
I changed...for the better I think. I lost my best friend in the process.
You know..if Lisa is reading this..I want her to know she was always, always important to me. I love her a lot.I just thought our friendship could substain changes..and it couldn't.
There are so many things I want to say to her but I can't. There are not words to convey how hurt I am. There are not words to convey that I never meant to leave her behind in any way..and that I never meant to shut her out. I wish there was a way I could tell her how it feels to be trapped in this head of mine. There are just so many things I can deal with and then I shut down. I never expected to lose her because of it all.
10:22 am - March 12, 2007
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