I don�t know if I mentioned it but Kevin is alive. Remember how worried I was about him?
Well, a few weeks ago I sent this letter to his mom�s address. I didn�t really want to know if it was bad news, but if it was, I felt like I needed some closure. 6 months of waiting was wearing thin on my nerves.
A week ago Friday I got an ATT collect message from Kevin. I called him right away. He answered on the first ring. His sister had forwarded my letter.
This is what happened to him: Around the time I talked to him in November, he had mentioned some issues with work and the fact that his church was going to list him as being inactive due to his homosexuality. Kevin was very hurt by this because he was a faithful servant to God and a very good member, always attending every time the doors were open at that church.
Remember when we talked in November he mentioned calling us around the holidays and coming to visit in January?
It never happened because a few days after that November phone call he took all of his money $300.00 or so, and bought a one-way ticket to Los Angeles. He was heading to LA to kill himself. He told me that.
You know, he didn�t have much money left over after buying that ticket, right? Three days of riding the bus to get to LA and he arrived pretty much broke in Los Angeles. Because he was broke, he rode the city buses, which run 24 hours a day, for 3 days.
On the third day, Kevin went to McDonald�s to get some food. He was standing outside after he ate when this dude next to him pulled out a Veteran�s ID card. Kevin says, �I got one of those� to which the guy replied, �Really?� And they began talking.
I guess Kevin�s story pretty much poured out of him. This stranger took Kevin to the Veteran�s Administration and got him hooked up with his disability again. You all know Kevin is on disability due to the encephalitis he got when in the Navy, I�m sure.
After hooking Kevin up with the VA, the guy put Kevin up in his house for a few days. Then he took Kevin down to public housing�and that�s where Kevin is now.
Before his benefits came through, Kevin was eating out of trashcans. This pains my heart to hear. I think if you knew Kevin, the refined, glamorous Kevin, you�d be shocked too.
I think, why didn�t he call me? I don�t have much but he wouldn�t have starved, or have to sleep outside or on a smelly city bus. I asked him this and he told me he didn�t want to be a burden.
When I think of all the kind and wonderful things Kevin did for me over the years, and yet he doesn�t call me when he�s in trouble. It makes me sad�..I love Kevin so much. He has been my dear friend for the better part of 9 years. He is my daughter�s godfather too. Jackie loves her Uncle Kevin.
But I guess the important thing right now is that Kevin is alive so I don�t have to wonder anymore, and although he set out to do himself harm, he has found hope and is doing well. I think in LA they are probably much more accepting of a person being gay. I just hope Kevin doesn�t get wrapped up in the drug culture that is so prevalent in some clubs. I know about this, because it was all around me when I was going to these clubs.
Just say no, okay Kevin? I love ya, dude.
Jackie leaves for Oregon tomorrow. I am happy for her and yet I am sad for me. The last few days, I pretty much have done anything she�s asked me to do, within reason.
Jackie�s dad called Saturday. Weird enough, he didn�t talk to me, just Jackie. Oh well. It�s not like we have to talk every time.
And Uranus� parents, Jackie�s grandparents, have not emailed or called me back. I�m going to try to call them tonight. But no biggie. I know they�re going to take good care of Jackie, and that she�s going to have a blast.
I think they might be a little mad about the whole baptism thing, but eventually they�ll come around. I just do not want my kid to be baptized as a Mormon. No way.
I�ve already told her, you can be any religion you want, except Pentecostal, Jehovah�s Witness or Mormon. None of them are fine by me.
We�ll see. Kids usually do the opposite of what you want them to do anyway����.
I�m busy developing a game plan for my bills. I won�t be able to get them all paid off this month. But maybe in the next few months. I think this will help me keep my job. Maybe God�s just warning me that I cannot continue to let things in my life slide and hope it will go away. I got to confront my issues.
I have been having moderate stomach pain for the past few days. I think it�s a lot to do with the stress of getting Jackie ready to go to Oregon, and the sadness that she will be gone for 5 whole weeks.
Lisa gave me some of her Librax. That really seems to do the trick and relax my stomach, except when you gotta get out of bed at 10:30 at night, an hour after you took it because your kid forgot her asthma medication, then drive over to Lisa�s house to interrupt the sleepover, then drive home with the windows all the way down because you are groggy!
Tired. Very tired today. And my stomach still hurts.
1:53 pm - June 13, 2005
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