With my job it is a never-ending pain to deal with personnel security. Whenever I get a call from them I get stomach pains and panic attacks.
I got a call this morning.
Here�s the deal. You all know I have been investigated, which is a requirement for working here.
I have debt. Small debt compared to most people, but I still have debt. The government thinks it pays us enough to keep all the bills paid, but I still have trouble sometimes.
Many of my bills are small, around $69.00, $130.00, some small, two big ones. Somehow, I have to pay off at least 5 of these smaller debts by June 25th or I�ll lose my job in less than two months. The total amount due is somewhere around $2500. If I just pay off the small ones it�ll be around $600.00.
I just sent the folks at my retirement account an email asking if I can borrow $1000 out of my account. I don�t know what I�ll do if they won�t let me.
I�m not asking any of you for money, I�m just venting, okay?
But I�ll be out of a job soon.
That�s right. Me. A single working mom. Will be out of work.
Because I can�t pay some bills.
I don�t know what the hell I�m going to do.
So much for wanting to get ahead. So much for not penny-pinching. So much for being able to afford getting my hair cut once in a while. Forget birthday presents for my nieces and a new bed for my daughter.
I�m scared.
Oh, and the icing on the cake? I also have to provide a statement on my mental health and the medicine I�m taking for manic depression. Joy!
10:34 am - June 03, 2005
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