I could not sleep at all last night. I went to bed at 9:45 p.m. and did not fall asleep until well after 11:00 p.m.
Romy and I talked yesterday. It was sad.
In light of the things I wrote about her, she feels it is best to go our separate ways. The �New Cold War� entry was something she read�and it hurt her.
I don�t know what else to say without throwing salt into the wound, but I will say that what I said was rooted in what I really feel.
However, she was right. I think that no one really deserves for us to point out all the things that are �wrong� with them. What would people say about me? I�m neurotic, driven by guilt, wishy-washy, passive aggressive and overly sensitive. I said it. It�s true.
Maybe I shouldn�t have written about her in such a public place. It is a diary, but it�s on the web.
I think she was appalled that I posted that entry on the web. I deleted it, but I�m sure that doesn�t make her feel any better.
Now, onto my job. I am worried that something is coming down the pipeline. If I suddenly stop writing it�s because I had to leave here, and I have no other access to a computer. Have faith that I will come back, somehow.
I am also very worried that Romy has or will contact my job about that entry. My job doesn�t really care what you do on the web, as long as it�s not porn. But writing something that upsets other people could be grounds for disciplinary action or grounds for dismissal.
If that happens, I don�t know what I�ll do. This job is my livelihood. Without it, I couldn�t make rent and car payments. I�m sort of at her mercy right now.
I learned my lesson. When you�re mad at your friends, leave it out of the diary. Deal with that in private.
Yes, I learned the hard way.
I might end up locking my journal for a while too. I just don't know.
7:56 am - February 11, 2005
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