Something�s been bothering me this week. In fact, a few things have been bothering me. Maybe that�s why I�m not myself this week.
First, the situation with my Grandma has to end! I am so frustrated for her, myself; our family and I�ve had it. Changes have to be made. By whom? Well, that is the question here. And I�m so upset about the way she interacted with the children this weekend that I�m tempted to not go on Sunday. After all, I love her. But the way she�s treating people is not acceptable. Understandable, maybe. Acceptable, no. I know she�s lonely. I know that must suck. I just wish I could do more for her, but right now, I can�t. I�m stretched thin.
2nd..I am really frustrated for Romy. Her job ends October 15th and she�s stressing really bad about how she�s going to pay her bills. I�ve been there. So, if you are the praying sort, say a little prayer for my friend that she will get a job really soon.
I�m also hoping she gets a new full time job because I have babysat every single weekend since June 28th for her so that she can work her second job. I�m tired. I need a break.
There are people I want to see and places I want to go and I haven�t been able to. But she�s a friend. Ms. Terry did it for me once, babysitting Jackie while I was at work. Ms. Terry made me promise to repay the favor if I ever had the chance. So here I am.
3rd..Lisa�s going through a lot and I haven�t been there for her like I should. Lisa, I want you to know that I love you, and that you are a beautiful person. If you just give me a little time, I promise I�ll make this up to you. :)
4th..My friend Kevin sent me a letter on Wednesday. That�s when I found out he tried to commit suicide in August. Oh, my god! I was there not even a year ago and I hate to think of someone I love going through that. What made me mad was this: He was at a men�s ministry meeting at his church. They started in with their anti-homosexual crap, and he couldn�t take it anymore. He came out and said, �I�m gay, and I�m in a homosexual relationship.� Hell, he�s always been gay, but he went back into the closet when he got out of the Navy.
They basically told him that he could not be a member of their church. What hypocrisy!! I told him, �Kevin, you are a wonderful person and I love you. God loves you too because you are his child and he created you. There are a lot worse things one can be besides gay.� Only God will judge. All others are hypocrites. I then informed him that the Episcopalian and Methodist churches are a little more open minded and he may find his new worship home at one of those. One of my best friends�s tried to kill himself because of the actions of a church. They are not fit to judge! How dare they! They had the audacity to pretend to speak on the behalf of the creator. Jerks.
I have a docter�s appointment today. I have managed to avoid him for six months. I know he�s going to up my medication. That�s scary. Yes, I will be even more mentally fit than ever, but if I get any bigger I will probably have a heart attack. I�m too fat.
There is just so much going on. My house is a mess and I�m embarrassed to have anyone over.
I�m exhausted.
11:37 am - October 08, 2004
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