My rat Cheesy died yesterday afternoon. When I first noticed her yesterday I noticed she was breathing rather hard. She was sprawled out on her side in the bedding, not moving otherwise.
Not even an hour later she was motionless.
I buried her in the back yard next to the tree. It�s quickly becoming our own pet cemetery. Cheesy joins Messy out by the big tree.
Jackie cried. She asked if we could get another rat. I told her, no more small animals.
We said some kind words about Cheesy and rat heaven and what it would be like. Doing that seemed to soothe Jackie a little.
Jackie ran inside and quickly made up a grave marker out of construction paper and a stick.
I didn�t really know how to feel. Cheesy had been deathly ill for a couple of weeks now and in my own little way, I�d already said my goodbyes. I didn�t cry.
It�s supposed to be 98 degrees on Sunday. I think I�m going to take Jackie swimming. Then, for the rest of the day, she�s going to be inside. Her asthma really seems to bother her in the heat and I don�t want her sick like she was last year at this time.
Saturday Jackie and I are riding with Tony to take Max to Springfield to meet Max�s dad. It�s the beginning of Max�s two-week vacation with his Dad. It�ll be nice for me to get out of the house too.
I�ve been cooped up and depressed for too long. When I�m at home too much I tend to over-think and obsess about every little thing. It�s time to let go of what�s toxic in my life. Guilt is toxic, so is bitterness. What�s important to me? My family and my friends. My daughter. Everything else can fall by the wayside.
I�ll be making the 2nd to the last payment on my car this weekend. It�s almost paid off. It seems like it�s taking forever to pay it off and I�m getting aggravated. I have plans for Jackie and myself when the car is paid off. The first is to pay any outstanding bills. Next comes the treadmill. Next comes the computer. Next comes a new bedroom set for Jackie. Then it�s time to start saving money like mad.
12:37 pm - July 08, 2004
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