It was an absolutely beautiful weekend and I was left yearning for spring. This winter has been so cold and dreary and so depressing. It's time to move on!
I'm still waiting for my new ATM card. I still can't believe someone stole my number and tried to use it on Eastbay. Butthole Jerks. It's so inconvenient to have to go to the bank to get my money. I hate doing things the old fashioned way and mainly having to do it because of someone else's criminal actions.
I had a lot of plans for this weekend, however, everything went to hell from the moment I left work on Friday.
After taking antibiotics for 8 days I was still feeling swollen in the throat area and still dealing with major sinus drainage. I also started feeling weak.
Friday night I really started to feel like crap and had to drag myself to Target to get some cold medicine. Jackie was being a disobedient little snot and I was sorely tempted to slap her silly (!)for her sarcastic replies to my requests for her to "be good" and "stop hanging on the cart" and to "quit wandering away". I think I was just more sensitive because I was really feeling sick and thus very frusterated! I'm not the type of mom who hits her kid EVER but lately I've been tempted. She's been sarcastic, short-tempered, and she's been testing me by not doing what I ask her to. I've been putting my foot down and punishing her for her behavior and trust me my popularity has waned quickly. Where's the loyalty, Ms. Jackie?
Why does it seem lately you only want to be around me when you want something?
She's 6 going on 14. I adore my daughter. Sometimes she's just a smidge too hyper for me because I am so laid back. The problem was, I was exactly like her at that age. I was my own biggest fan. My sarcasm and jokes were hilarious even if they were at the expense of my sisters and cousins. I should've went into stand-up I tell you because that age was when I had fresh material. I was funny. Now, to illustrate Jackie's talent: Jackie has made up her own song to go with McDonald's "I'm lovin' it" slogan.
She sings, "Ba da da da DA! I'm rubbin my butt on it!" and I'm sorry to say that it cracks me and her up every single time and I cannot control myself long enough to admonish her for talking like that.
This is embarrassing. I'm a snickering mess sometimes. I find it hard to compose myself when I find something funny. Jackie says a lot of funny stuff, but I doin't want her to think that humor is always going to get her out of trouble.
I'm not a bad mom. I'm a nice mom. I'm an understanding young hip mom.
Even though I had a cold I tried to let Jackie have fun this weekend. Really! Saturday I was no better maybe worse, and I was really tired but I let her go with Romy and Dax to the Goodwill and then to the park. I sat on the couch like a lump for 3 hours trying to work up enough energy to do the dishes. This was depressing. It seemed like everything took so much effort.
Sunday I was feeling much better. First we went to clean Grandma Lou-Lou's house. I of course stopped by McDonald's and bought her and Jackie a Big Breakfast. I got a bacon egg and cheese bagel.
It was nice to see Grandma. We talked over the business with the Circuit Attorney and also talked about Renee. We are all worried about her and the kids because of Terry.
That jackass.
Grandma told me I could've brought the dog, but I didn't feel comfortable with him maybe or maybe not biting one of her dogs. I would go down in Infamy for that. I'd never live it down with the rest of the family.
After that Jackie and I went to Petsmart and bought a new leash (for 110 pound dog) because he broke the other two, and a muzzle. I want to enjoy the park and other people with my dog and not worry about him snapping at someone. I think Toby just has to be socialized for a while before I can trust him without the muzzle.
Anyway, we came home and took Toby for a quick walk. After that we decided to go to Jefferson Barracks Park for a nice long walk. First I took Jackie to the playground. She spent a little time on the swings and the monkey bars. Toby spent most of the time scooting his face along the ground trying to get the muzzle off. He
succeeded a few times but that just helped me because I knew to tighten it a little more.
We found a place to park and decided to walk the trail. We did half a mile! I felt really proud to have my dog on one side and my daughter on the other holding my hand. Toby only snapped at one dog, so I was pretty happy. It was a supremely beautiful day and i was just a little wistful that I couldn't share it with Lisa or Rene'. It's the kind of day you want to share with good friends. I felt bad for not calling Lisa. I spent so much time on the phone this weekend but I didn't have time to call her. If I wasn't talking to Melinda the I was talking to my mom, Grandma, Renee, Ms. Iris, or Ms. Terry.
On the way back Jackie asked me if she could roll down this enormous hill. Usually I'd say no because of bees or snakes but since technically this is still winter I felt she'd be safe.
The dog thought it was so neat to see Jackie roll down the hill so he would run to the end of the leash and it would snap a little. He didn't seem to care and he just ran in every direction out of excitement. It was my first "feel real good" day in years. Thanks to my medicine I'm back on an even keel now.
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You know what's awesome about winter? The part where you get sick and get virus after cold after flu.
I'm so over this.
Last week I had strep, Jackie had an upper respitory infection. This past week, Jackie had the flu and I ended the weekend with a cold. Last night, Jackie puked again. This time, all over every friggin thing on the bed. The sad part, I had just washed the sheets and comforter. Sigh.
After jackie ralphs the last time, I just had to look up at the ceiling, in the general direction of God, and ask, "Why me? Can't I get one night of sleep this week? Is this an omen about the next week?"
Just out of curiosity of course. I doubt I'll receive an answer from the benevolent one, but it doesn't hurt to ask. I'm sick of people in my house being sick. I have a reason why I buy the expensive filters and use an air purifier. Does it do me any good? NO!
It is all fruitless because my kid is in the first grade and every germ known to man latches on to her backpack at the end of the day and she brings it home. Yuck!
I talked to my dad yesterday. I explained what is happening with Renee and her loser stalker Terry. I think my dad is going to go up and stay with her a while. As my dad says, "He's earned himself an a-s-whoopin" inmy book. Snicker. I can't wait.
Bana's mom stopped by last night for about an hour. She is still feeling very grieved for her daughter. I felt better because I want to be there for Paige and Karen, but I don't want to intrude. She cried a little, but I think she's just very frusterated with the way people have dealt with Bana's death.
I want to say thanks to Trevor for the inspiration to buy the new Kylie Minogue CD. It is awesome if you like dance tunes. Almost every song on there is a "booty-rump-shake" song.
10:38 - Monday, Mar. 01, 2004
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