I am going apeshit. David and I got engaged while a song was playing on the radio. The words were like "Show me how to love" and it was not Sarah Brightman or John Waite. He said it was Soundgarden or Temple of the Dog. And yet I cannot find a song with those words by either group. It's driving me crazy.
You know..my diary had been locked for over a year and a half. I did not want to do that..but that crazy daughter of the murderer felt that she could do whatever she wanted with my diary information. I hated being locked. If anything..I love being able to share my life with people...and I have been very happy for a long time..and felt I had to keep my diary locked..and thus I could not share.
My life now is not the way it was even a year ago. Read my entries and you could feel the underlying sadness and depression. Look at the pictures I posted and you could see in my eyes that I was not only unhappy..but tortured.
My life is so awesome now. There are ups and downs...but I can deal with them so much better now that I have exorcised the demons.
I still have phobia's but they are minimal compared to the ones I used to have. I still have issues with panic disorder...and the thought of flying makes me shudder..but I'm no longer afraid of doctors, dentists, men, and highways.
Right now..there's a man sleeping in my bed. I dearly love him and plan to marry him soon. A year ago..I wouldn't let one in my front door.
I travel highways all the time. I can't remember a time where I took the back way (side roads) anywhere.
I saw my doctor two weeks ago..and my official weight loss is around 60 pounds.
I'm just happy.
I did find out that my job laid off 30 people on Friday..with more to come..and instead of freaking out..like I have in the past..I have just decided to deal with whatever comes.
Jackie's first day of school was Tuesday. We got up early..and she let me get some pictures. In the neatest little twist..we saw a dragonfly on a rose..
and not only did he let me take pictures..
he let us both touch him..and then he eventually flew away. It was the neatest thing..it made a beautiful memory..and now I have the inspiration for my next tattoo.
Here's a pic of Jackie with John..a sweet man..who is a retired marine and has lived here for years:
Jackie in her class (this will probably be the last year she'll allow me to do this):
Look at Lisa's belly!
We've spent the last week getting used to Jackie's new routine of being back to school. Things have been absolutely nuts. If I wasn't so embarrassed..I'd take some pics of the mess my house is and post them. And my refrigerator? Disgusting. I really need to clean it out.
But the problem with keeping this house clean is that neither Dave..nor Jackie, feel moved to clean up, sweep or throw away anything. It's driving me nuts. We now have 3 slobs in the house.
Dave and I are getting married on Halloween..we finally set a date. Nothing big..just something intimate. He is already wearing his wedding band...I don't know why. But he does seem comfortable wearing it.
That's it for now! Missy OUT!
7:26 am - August 20, 2006
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