I�ve been feeling very tired the last few days. I don�t know what it is. There are a lot of reasons I could be feeling run down. My sinuses have been bothering me, but I think it�s more than that.
1) Jackie has been to the doctor 4 times since December. She�s been to the dentist twice. Between doctors, dentists, and medication, I�ve spent $350.00 the past month and a half. She�s had, a sinus infection, pink eye, asthma aggravated by allergies, and my favorite, and the most recent, a bacterial infection in her lungs. I have a sneaking suspicion that the humidifier the doctor recommended we use at the 3rd visit to alleviate her asthma, must�ve had mold in it somewhere, and this contributed to this final illness.
Yesterday, Jackie got two fillings. Last month, she had some work done on her gums. We are well one our way to Jackie having healthy teeth, and the dentist is well on his way to paying for a Cruise in the Bahamas. I�m supposed to make an appointment for Jackie to see an orthodontist so we can find out if we should pull this one tooth or try to save it, and to also talk about putting �spacers� in her teeth, whatever they are.
2) Toni still has not been able to find a job. The poor girl. She�s got a bachelor�s degree and can�t find a job? Sucks. This is stressing me because she�s my friend. I feel bad for her. And I�m helping her financially a little, so I�m also stressing about how long I�m going to have to do that. I�m already tapped out for the month with her. She�s worried that she will literally; have to sleep in her car.
3) My job, which I cannot discuss, has certain requirements that one has to deal with to stay employed. The most important, and most tedious, is a background check conducted every 5 years by federal agents. They research your employment history, every home you�ve lived at for the last 10 years, your neighbors, your co-workers, your credit history, your medical history, your relationships, your family and last but not least, your mental health.
Unfortunately for me, I�ve had to deal with an agent about once a year, because inevitably, each one will start my process, and then stop. And then forget about me for 8 months. And then start back up where they left off. I don�t know much about the process, so every time I�ve interacted with them, I�ve concluded that I was finished for at least another 5 years, when in reality, I was not.
I don�t know if you�ve ever had to deal with a federal agent, but it is not a pleasant process. Almost everyone I know has gone on the defensive because they ask some very prying and PERSONAL questions. It is unnerving.
In fall 2001, I had my second background check. The pain continued until February of 2002. It�s a long process.
I had the first background check when I was in the Navy. The guy assigned to me this time was one of the scariest and most intimidating people I ever met. He insulted me and got in my face. I left the interview in tears, and I was thankful it was over.
In January of 2003 I got a call from a special agent. I called him back and he informed me that the first agent had started me process and then stopped, thus nullifying all of the steps I�d already completed and put me right back at square one.
As usual, I was very honest. I filled out the 40-page questionnaire again.
This guy was much nicer and I was relieved that he was not going to grill me. He made the usual contacts, just like the first guy. He talked to my neighbors and friends.
When that was over I was relieved. With it all finally behind me, I went on with my life.
Until yesterday, when I checked my messages at work. There was a message on their from a special agent, asking me to call him. Curious, I called him right away. He informed me that the last agent that did my case was a contractor and did not, in fact, complete my case.
I tried to not let my frustration affect my interaction with him. I don�t think he started over because I did not have to fill out the questionnaire. However, I did have to sign medical release forms. It seems that my doctor blew them off the last time.
Crap.
I�m not panicking. But every time I thought this was behind me it�s come up again. I�m terrified they�ll find something they don�t like, and I�ll lose my job. I have lived a very colorful life.
So, that�s a headache.
Flip me over, I�m done.
12:42 pm - January 21, 2005
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