I want things to go back to the way they were. The way they were before my sister came to visit. After the hoopla from the DNA review died down, I felt like my life was finally going back to normal.
My life hasn�t felt right since Renee left and we had that big fight over the phone. The last 2 weeks I�ve had insomnia almost every frigging night. I�m exhausted. I�m so worried about her.
I guess it just disturbs me that I don�t think my sister feels she has value. That what she thinks, says, feels matters. Her personal happiness doesn�t rank either.
I�m so sad for her.
I know I cannot live her life for her nor can I ultimately make the decision who�s she�s going to spend her life with. I guess I�ll have to back away.
I�ve said my peace. That�s enough right?
She knows I hate his guts and I didn�t spare any words. I guess that�s enough.
Rene� and I are going to see �The Stepford Wives� tonight. I can�t wait. Before we head to the movie theaters he�s taking me to buy a new pair of Raybans, since I broke mine.
Friday night he may stay the night. Really. For the first time in a year. Oh, I yearn to hold a male body close to mine in slumber. I miss that. The male essence, the scent. The feel of his hard muscles (I love Rene�s legs. He�s got runner�s legs).
Who knows what else will happen? Mr. Sweatpants is a highly unpredictable person. You never know what he�s going to do.
That�s part of the thrill.
I�m just praying Aunt Flo doesn�t make a visit in the next few days because that would really suck.
Saturday night Salsalita and I are going out. I�m so excited!
We�ve never been down on the Riverfront together..hee! I just hope I don�t see that hot cop that I asked to get up on the bar and dance for me. Oops. I was just a wee bit drunk.
2:09 pm - June 24, 2004
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