I half expected Xandor to show up at my house last night. I even had my little speech prepared, something along the lines of "I'm not mad at you and mean no disrespect, but...you have to talk to me and ask if you may come over. And no showing up at the crack of dawn ever again, kapeesh?" He didn't stop by.
Interesting.
Well, we'll see. Yesterday morning he said something about stopping by on Wednesday so I guess that's when we'll have our talk.
I didn't call him yesterday. I just needed a little time to think about things, especially this new "relationship". I know if I let this guy in, then I have to do some shifting and adjusting of my own. I thought long and hard yesterday about that.
I am ready to allow a man back into my life. We won't count Rene', Mr. Commitment-Phobe. He is just a moving part of my tapestry. He is enmeshed in my life anyway.
A new man will require some shuffling on my part. I just want to be sure its not Jackie that will be doing the shuffling, so I guess I will keep her out of things until I know more where I stand with the men in my life.
I am concerned too that a new man may not like how close Rene' and I are. I guess he'll just have to get over it because Rene' stays. He's my best male friend and I love him.
8:15 am - May 18, 2004
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