Jackie�s on Spring Break this week. Ms. Iris is keeping her for me. Every day I come home and ask her, �Did you kill them yet?� Ms. Iris is such a loving person, so it�s the opposite of who she is. She wouldn�t hurt a hair on their head, even if they were driving her nuts.
I�m dreading Jackie going back to school. I had a conference call with her teacher, Ms. Roseybutt, last week and the teacher insinuated that the ONLY reason Jackie was continually getting Green behavior marks was because she was sitting by herself. I know for a fact that Jackie is working really hard to control herself and I think she�s doing a great job.
�Why is she still sitting by herself because of one day of restlessness six weeks ago?� I demanded to know. I felt like the punishment far outweighed the crime.
�It�s because she does better by herself, and in a group she talks too much��
The teacher couldn�t come up with a satisfactory reason, but told me that after Spring Break she would be putting Jackie back at a table but I should expect �a change in her behavior.� I was steamed. Way to boost a kid�s confidence lady! Thank God I try to instill self-confidence in my daughter so that the teacher�s lack of confidence doesn�t have a lasting impact on Jackie. Only a few more months baby, and you won�t have to deal with this lady ever again.
I�m trying to teach this kid about tenacity. It�s come at a high price.
God bless the sleep clinic. I emailed them in early March about my sleep problems, but I never got back to them. I was supposed to call, but Monday Jill, the receptionist, called me and set up a date with me for a new study.
Yesterday I checked the mail and there was a colorful little box in there containing a replacement mask. I have to say that I slept pretty well last night. No gasping for breath or any of that scary crap. I guess that maybe switching the mask was all I needed to do.
Nice. I still have another sleep study coming up on April 16th to recalibrate my machine to the proper air pressure needed to keep my airway from collapsing 15 times an hour.
As if gaining weight wasn�t punishment enough I started to have sleep problems last fall and it only took me this long to ask for help. 8 Months.
I hate having sleep apnea. Firstly, the mask, known as a C-Pap, leaves indentations on my face. 2nd: It�s just not a glamorous way to fall asleep unless you like looking like Darth Vador.
Sigh.
Without the C-Pap, or when it�s no longer working for me, I feel like a truck�s run over me. Not pleasant. I have a hard time concentrating. I get headaches. I�m lethargic and a bit lazy.
I�m a real joy to behold.
Ms. Terry is still a little mad at me. I haven�t been to her house since before Christmas. I did talk to her on the phone Sunday and as always, we cackled like two old witches. She makes me laugh. At least she doesn�t think that I �don�t like black people anymore�. That was appalling to me that she�d think or even say that because it�s so the opposite of the person I am. Maybe she just said it to get my attention.
I�ve just been busy being tense and tired for the last 10 months. I haven�t had a lot of extra energy to go visiting folks. Don�t feel bad Ms. Terry; a lot of people have rarely seen me this year.
I�ll probably go out this weekend to Ms. Terry�s house to get Jackie�s Easter dress that she bought her. I�m going to give Lewis $10.00 for a late Christmas gift so he can put that toward a new video game. I never know what to buy little boys anyway.
I miss my Godson Lewis. He�s a precious little boy and I�ve not been there for him. I feel bad about that because really, there�s no excuse not to visit with my Godson.
I�m a poor excuse for a Godmother.
I�ve been wanting to get together with Lisa for a couple weeks now. I really miss her!!
Seems like she�s having some hard times right now�and I should be there for her. In fact, I�m going to call her today.
As far as this diary, I think I�m going to write whenever it strikes my fancy. I think some of my entries will be a bit shorter than usual, as I�m not going to pressure myself to write long entries anymore. I am going to try to be more positive too. I think I�ve focused on the negativity in my life for so long, and it�s time for a change.
I think I�m going to keep writing in here. Please bear with me .as I�m going through some changes.
08:55 - Thursday, Apr. 08, 2004
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